"Time escapes me..."

It's been six days since my last post... I'm sorry, really, I am. I can't really remember what happened past last friday, but I do know this. Time escapes me rather often, during the summer I can go a week or two without really understanding how much time has passed. And so that is how the last week has been for me, time is flying and I just can't keep up.

I'll give a brief summary of each day unless important moments pop up in my memory.

So, Friday I had woken up at the exact moment that the lunch bell usually rings for me. And it took me exactly one second after I woke up to realize I had overslept, and another second after seeing the time to know that I had already missed over half the school day. So I got up, went downstairs, and played Fallout 4. Yup, didn't have a ride to school, so there was nothing for me to have done about that!

On Saturday, I woke up feeling restless, because this was the day that I had planned on going to the girl's house to see if she could hang out. I spent the first half of the day restlessly doing whatever I could to entertain myself, until at about 1 P.M. I got up and left the house to walk down the street to her house. Turns out, she was doing yard work, and had to get it done before she could come over. So me and one of her other friends hung about and helped her with her yard work. It was genuinely fun, talking with her, joking around, but at some point I focused on the work and got it done as quickly as possible so that she could come over. I was that excited!

When she did come over, we went up to my room and played Fallout 3 and talked. It was just plain enjoyable. At some point, I ended up holding her hands because they were so cold, and we talked while I held them. It was comforting and nice in an almost indescribable way. It was a way in which I haven't felt in a long time, I didn't even feel that way with my ex. Later, her aunt invited me to go with them to church on Sunday, and I'm agnostic, although I really lean closer to the atheist side, but without solid proof of existence or lack thereof of a God, I can't be sure. But yeah, I'm agnostic, and don't much care for organized religion, but for the girl, since it would make her happy, I accepted.

Sunday appears over the horizon as I slept, I wake up early so that I don't miss their car when it comes to pick me up. The ride takes something like half an hour to forty five minutes, but when we get there, I see that it's a really big church. I start to really dread it when I see how many people there are, but oh well, I was in it and there wasn't any backing out. I wouldn't back out even if I could though, because I wasn't going to go back on my word. Entering the church, we start to go up to our seats after one of our group gets some coffee. On the way, I start a mini theological debate with the girl, which didn't turn into an argument, thankfully. The entire thing though wasn't that bad, but it's just not to my tastes.

On Monday, I miss the bus by a few minutes, but thankfully catch my dad just as he is leaving for work and I manage to get to school at about the same time the buses are letting off, so that turned out alright. But I did pass right by the girl without her even noticing me. She looked really tired and less than half there, so it didn't bother me too much that she didn't notice me.

It was around this time I started to slack off a bit from my school work, and fast forwarding to earlier today, I realized that focusing so heavily on my school work has been what's allowed me to move past my old feelings for my ex. I was feeling really emotional today during my classes, except for the time that I was focusing solely on my work. So yeah, focusing on my work actually helps me a lot, it's sort of therapeutic for me.

Honestly, I've found myself starting to miss the girl's presence lately. Sometimes I miss the bus in the morning, or other times I won't be able to ride home in the afternoon, and it's hard to explain. I like the habit of sitting next to the girl and listening to music while talking with her, or listening to her and all my friends talk, or just sitting in silence. There's not really a way for me to define it, it just is. Hopefully some of you out there understand what I'm trying to say and maybe can better put into words what I am talking about?

That's all for now, I just wanted to make sure I got a post out today, I'm really sorry, again, time escapes me easily, but also I'm just naturally lazy, and was too lazy to post XD

Bye bye y'all, Alex out!