Invisible

Sometimes I am invisible,
No one in the world to see,
No thought or feeling for me.

There are times when I am quiet,
Times where I am still,
Times where I'm just not there...

Do you give a second glance,
A second thought,
For the hushed, the reticent,
The ones who feel alone?

I just came up with that. And you know what I realized today? I have two friends who do that, who give that second glance, that second thought, to people like me, people who more often than not, feel alone and invisible, even when they try to speak up, they still go unnoticed. And while most of the time I'm fine with it, there are other times where I just wish people could notice me, times when I really NEED someone to notice and ask me how I'm doing, or if I am alright. And for the past day and a half, I've needed that, and thankfully, people did notice me.

Yesterday after I got home from school, I immediately went over to the girls house, cause I wanted to hang out and talk, but her dad told me she had to clean her room, and that it would take hours to do so. So I accepted that and left. But as I was halfway home, I realized how bullshit that was, cause the day before yesterday, I had been in there and it was practically spotless, and then when I got home and talked with my family about it, I realized it was him basically telling me to fuck off, in a very polite and indirect way. After I realized that, I got embarrassed, angry, and depressed. The first two are obvious, but why would I get depressed? Because I realized how much I liked the girl and how much I wanted to see her and talk to her. And now I really want to tell her that I like her so much.

But I'm staying away for a few days, because I had been going over there a lot and I guess I just need to stay away for a few days. Although, I know of a way I can talk with the girl without having to worry about her family... For now, I'll wait until Monday, and if they give some bs excuse again, I'll confront them about it, and if they won't let me see her, well, then I'll put my R&J plan into action!

I'll add on to that poem if I think up anything else to continue it.

Bye y'all, have a wonderful evening/morning/afternoon, Alex out!