So. I would talk about yesterday, but yesterday is kinda private. I know, I know, I've talked about some serious stuff on here, and stuff that would be considered really private by normal people. But for one, I'm not normal, and two, I'm seriously not normal. But that's besides the point, I talk about stuff relating to me, but not private family matters. Which is why I won't talk about yesterday. Suffice to say, yesterday was depressing.
But today. Man, I don't know about today. Today was surprising, shocking, and strange. I woke up to my cat doing the claw thing cats do when they're happy and comfortable, but he was doing it on my head. So I rolled around a lot to get him to stop, but he wouldn't. Eventually I just gave in to what he wanted, which was to get under my blankets and lay next to me. He's weird like that. But shortly after that I had to get up and get ready for the day, and so I did.
The strangeness doesn't end there, though. It's just getting started. I get on the bus and sit in my normal seat. It's chilly and wet, cause of rain, and the heat vent under my seat isn't on, which is strange cause it's usually on when it's cold. But I brush it off and just chill on the ride to school, when all of a sudden, something lands on my head. Now, the only person behind me that morning was a friend two seats back, so I turn and look at her and ask her why she threw something at me. She said she was trying to get my attention, then holds out a note on a scrap of paper. Wondering what the heck was going on, I take it and read it. It was a folded note, and on the front, it said "I'm still grounded." Thinking there had to be more, I flipped it open and, I gotta say, I was honestly astonished when it read on the inside "I like you." And it also had her name and number. This literally shocked me into a state where my face was frozen on an dumbfounded look mixed with a questioning one. I kept looking back at her and the note. When I finally got my wits back, I hopped back to her seat to talk with her.
Now, here's the thing, I've not really thought seriously about if I liked another girl after my ex broke up with me. I've had thoughts, but not serious, mind delving, soul searching thoughts about whether I like a girl or not, but thoughts nonetheless. (still don't understand how that's a word) But I hadn't thought about this girl that way, or thought to think of her that way. So, I went back to talk with her, and I told her I didn't know how I felt, so I would think on it for the day. She was alright with this, and I went back to my seat, but there wasn't an awkward air or anything, thankfully. Things still seemed normal.
So the day went on, I was shocked for about a quarter of it. I did eventually get over my shock, though I was still surprised, because, let's face it, us aspies are queer as hell, and I know that I myself am not that attractive, so I think I had resigned myself to never having a girl like me, always having to chase after a girl myself. I think that's why I was so astonished. Anyways, I talk with some of my friends, get conflicting advice, decide to ignore all of it and think about what to do myself. Went through the day. Dealt with crap. Nothing new, really. Unless you want me to go over my classes extensively, of course. I think the most exciting thing today was going to sleep in math class. No, I'm not a slacker, (anymore) being sick makes me really extra fatigued, so twice now I've fallen asleep in math. The other time was yesterday, actually.
So, near the end of the day, on my way to 4th, I stop by a friend to get my mostly daily hug from her, (she gives good hugs) but she was looking sad, and didn't hug me. So, I did what I do best. I threw off my facade for a moment, and acted like myself. I think I managed to make her smile a bit and comfort her, but I couldn't for too long because 1) I had to get to class and 2) She has incredibly soft hands, so soft that they set off my sensory issues with light touches, which I usually have a fairly high tolerance of. I hope I helped her, but I don't think it did much, if at all really. Tomorrow, I'm gonna give her one of my signature hugs, which, if you ask anyone who's gotten a real hug from me, they'll tell you to not let me hug them, as they hurt :p
Okay, end of the school day, I rush to the bus because I'm excited, and it's what I always do when I'm excited and nervous. I get on the bus, and I'm like one of the only high schoolers on it at the moment in time, I got there so fast. I wait for the girl who gave me the note to get on the bus, and when she does, I type out to her that I would like to go on a couple dates with her to see how I feel, and she said okay to that. I had to type it out cause there were people around and I didn't want to talk out loud for people to hear our conversation.
So, I get home, had to do some chores, which involved taking out the trash, doing the litter box for the cats, and picking up the dog shit in the house. Fun. Then I got the DLC for Binding of Isaac: Rebirth, which is called Binding of Isaac: Afterbirth, and spent most of my day playing that, after doing my homework of course!
You know, the thing I'm wondering is, how are people liking this blog? Do you readers feel like my point of view as a teen with Asperger's Syndrome is helping? Is it just fun to read about my strange days and strange past? Please, someone comment and tell me. Eight or so posts, and no comments is strange!
Well, that's it for now, peace y'all, Alex out.
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