So, I missed yesterday's post, and now I don't really remember much that happened yesterday, except for the important things. But I've gotten permission to talk about one of the events, so I shall.
I was bored during lunch yesterday, and so I went up to a friend and acquaintance, whom I shall refer to as R and S. So, R was telling me about how this fucking prick in one of her classes is always making crude and mean jokes about her body in this class. I mean, physically, she's attractive, that's obvious, but her personality is what is more attractive, and if that prick can't see that, well he can go rot in hell. I can guarantee all of you that R is fucking awesome and you should all totally be friends with her and stuff! So at the time, I didn't really know how to respond, so I just sort of agreed with her that that sucked.
Fast forwarding a little bit to the evening, I looked back on this and started to get enraged. Like actually enraged. I wanted to go and beat the living shit out of this dude and make him regret ever being a jerk to my friend. I'm extremely loyal to my friends, maybe to a fault, but it's how I am. But this wasn't to a fault, this was me being royally pissed off. I cherish the friends I have, respect them, and want to protect them however I can, even if they don't need it.
I don't have a younger sibling, I am the youngest in my sibling group, but if I did, I think the protectiveness I have for some of my friends, including R, would be that of an older brother. I think I explained that correctly. I don't want to see my friends hurt. So I told her that I really wanted to beat the shit out of the dude, and she told me that she was gonna file a report against him since he's sexually harassing her. I hope he gets expelled, fucking human scum. So yeah, R is a really cool person, you all should totally be her friends if you ever meet her! Not that you know who she is, of course :)
So yeah, yesterday was interesting, but again, I don't really remember much.
ON TO TODAY!
Today was tiring. Still is tiring. Fallout 4 came out today, woo! But I can't play it yet cause my dad has been playing it. I will tomorrow.
I actually didn't fall asleep until late into 1AM last night, so today I was left very tired and grumpy. I just wanted to sleep, in fact I did fall asleep a few times, but at very inopportune times. Like just as the bus was arriving at the school, or while we were being given instructions in 3rd. I was also really hungry, which didn't help. I hadn't had any money for lunch, and so I went hungry for a few hours. But when I got home, after leaf blowing the driveway, I went inside, grabbed two packets of poptarts, and went upstairs to eat both of them and fall asleep.
Nothing truly exciting happened today, other than riding home. The bus ride home, hmm. Well, I sat next to C, as per usual, and sort of talked to her for a bit, but I didn't really know how to conduct myself today. I didn't know what to do or what to talk about. Then the people around me, including her, started up in a category game where they shouted what they could about the category, like colors or types of drinks. I tried to be silly and make her laugh or something, but I sort of failed at that. Sometimes I really just don't know what to do with myself, so I just listened to the music I had playing and sung along softly under my breath at times in which a song I liked came on, usually love songs.
I really like love songs. I'm a hopeful romantic. Notice how I didn't say 'hopeless romantic'. Well that's because I'm actually hopeful that I will find a meaningful relationship one day. Maybe it will be with C, maybe it will be far in my future, but all I can do is hope right now. I've read a lot about various aspies in their marriages, a few from the Aspies POV, but mostly from the NT partners POV, and it makes me wonder if we can actually have a successful relationship and marriage with NTs. I obviously won't know the answer to that for many years, but it's something I rarely contemplate.
That's all for tonight, I'll see y'all tomorrow, Alex out!
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