Past, Present, and Future

If one loses sight of the now by staring into the past, then they won't be able to see their future.

It's a simple fact that humans have to move forward to survive. We can't dwell on our past in a negative way if we want to improve ourselves and look at our future. We can study our past to find out what we did wrong, so that we may improve ourselves and avoid our past mistakes. But if we continue to obsess over our past, and especially in a negative manner, then we'll just crumble.

I talk about this because for awhile, I was having trouble getting over my ex, and I was doing my best to not dwell on the past because I knew that it would just unravel me if I did so. So I did what I needed to, which was to move past it and look at my future, and Time as my companion in this endeavor, as always.

But what I didn't see in my future, because I didn't believe it could happen to me, was a girl liking me. It's happened once or twice before, but it's so rare that I simply don't expect it, and even believe that it won't happen, but it does, and it has. The girl who likes me is the one I've referred to as 'the girl' in most cases. She's liked me for a while now, and at some point, I started seeing her as more than a friend and started liking her back. A few days ago, I couldn't see her because she had to clean her room and some other stuff, (I had thought this was some bs excuse, but apparently she actually did need to clean her room!) and for the next two days I was really lonely because I couldn't see her, well really I was too scared to go down and see her for fear of being told to go away.

It was quite a miserable time for me, but you know what it helped me realize? It helped me realize how much I liked her and how much I depended on being able to hang out and talk with her to keep from being lonely. The only time I wasn't completely bored and miserable was when I was hanging out with my mom watching TV and reading.

But today, or yesterday, for me at least, as it is 1:15 AM when I am typing this, I went over to the girl's house and knocked on the door, and lo and behold, the girl answers the door. We sit down to talk in her living room and I tell her my feelings for her and she seems pleased that I return her feelings. A lot of the stuff we talked about I can't discuss on here without her permission as it was very private stuff, and even with her permission I wouldn't put it on here, but we did just sit and cuddle for literally hours and I got her on Facebook so that we can talk while not being in the same room and so it is easier to arrange when we can go over to each others houses. We were talking on Facebook later, more private stuff, but one thing we did decide is that we're dating now, so yay!

The overall point of this post, other than to update you on my life so far, is to say this: No matter what happens, Time is your eternal companion and it will guide you through the good and bad, so don't dwell on the past, do not be blind to to present, and do look towards your future.

That's all for now y'all, Alex out!