Magical Safety Dragons For All!

To follow up on the ending of the last post, the reason for this blog was a two-part thing. One: Because I almost never find any blogs on teenagers with Asperger's Syndrome, I wanted to start my own since there weren't any really that I could find. Two: I needed a safe place to vent that wouldn't directly affect my personal life. By that, I mean I wanted to be able to vent without always having to go to a specific person to do so. It's a sanctuary of sorts.

So. I like Raven. Most of you are probably un-surprised, I made it fairly obvious. I'm still not going to ask her out though. I just want to take my time and go at a pace I'm comfortable with. So much in my generation is rushed, we're so impatient, it's crazy. This time though, I'm going to be patient and take my time.

I recently did some research into demisexuality. The word popped into my head the other day, as words tend to do for me, so I looked it up and I felt sort of resonant with it. Here's the definition:" A demisexual is a person who does not experience sexual attraction unless they form a strong emotional connection with someone. It's more commonly seen in but by no means confined to romantic relationships. The term demisexual comes from the orientation being "halfway between" sexual and asexual." I don't fall for people that I don't know. Physical beauty only kicks in when I find an emotional connection with them. At least, in most cases.

This would also explain why I usually only find an interest in people I'm friends with, since when you make a friend it's because you're socializing and developing an emotional connection with them, though that is usually in a more platonic sense. I do generally think of my friends in platonic ways. Usually. Some of them are quite beautiful, so... (I mean, they're all beautiful in their own ways, but not all of them appeal to me in the physical sense.)

Anyways, back on topic! I told Raven I liked her yesterday. She didn't really react, well, she did, but not in a way that I interpret as negative nor positive. It was sort of a neutral reaction, so maybe she didn't know how to? I don't know, but as I told one of my best friends last night, I'm just going to play it by ear, see how things pan out. I'm not going to over-think things or worry too much about them, that simply won't help me in this situation.

Here, have a magical safety dragon!