Woo! Best! Day! Ever!

Today I found out that Raven likes me too. Which makes me extremely happy. Although the events leading up to me finding that out were agonizing.

It was 4th period and as per usual, I was enjoying talking with Raven when I could, though eventually I had to go to my seat and get my work done. But shortly after I sit down, my friend Nick comes over and tells me that he heard from a friend that Raven likes someone else. This, of course, upset me. I hid it quite well, just politely trying to shoo him away because I needed to think and keep my emotions under control.

Now, I don't trust almost anything unless it's right from the source, but it didn't stop my mind from going on a god damned pessimistic spree of self-torturous events that left me more upset each time. This all going on for almost an hour. But what I did to help it was focus on my work and blast Sleeping With Sirens in my ears for most of that time. It distracted me a bit, but not entirely.

Eventually I went over and started joking and talking with Raven and I kid you not, my mood did a 1 freaking 80 and I was in a decent mood again! I don't know how, but being around her almost always cheers me up without fail.

Class ends and we do our normal thing of walking out of the class and talking, though shortly afterwards I do bring up the question as to whether she likes me back. She questions why I had to bring this up to her, and I explain that I don't want to get super invested in her, only for her to reject me and me be all sad and moody for months. Turns out she is just really awkward when it comes to admitting feelings for someone, but I did get her to answer the question just before she got on her bus. She said yes, she does like me in that way! Fucking made me the happiest person in the school at that moment, and still to this one too!

I was so scared that she wouldn't return my feelings. They're really intense and strong feelings, too. I don't know her level of feelings, but I do know mine. It would have left me extremely devastated if she had rejected me.

But, all in all, great fucking day. Just, freaking brilliant!

(Technically she's not my fish yet, cause I haven't asked her out, but we both like each other, so all you other fish can merrily fuck off :D)