Time to Become a Monk

I don't know why I even talk anymore. Anything I say just causes pain and suffering. People listen too much to what I say and I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I should just talk as little as possible now. That way, I won't hurt people, because I'll have said nothing for them to be hurt or caused pain by. I feel like I'm gonna cry, because I'm causing pain to someone I care about even as I type this. I have feelings for her and I both just want to be her friend and to be something more. Right now, I don't think it's healthy for her to be even around me though. I'm ruining her life with just a few words like "You're my friend." or "I care about you." I should just shut up and say as little as possible, because words are too powerful. Almost everyone says "Actions speak louder than words." Well, I think I've proven them wrong, not that I ever fucking wanted to. Fuck. That's all. Just... just fuck.